Thursday: 4th October, 2018
Reference text: Psalm 27
Psalms 27:13,14 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
I am about two-thirds through the book ‘Leota’s garden’ by Francine Rivers: and thus far, the theme that has stood out for me is the ‘story of anger and hate a daughter had for her mother’. The real irony however, is that even though this daughter lived feeling abandoned and uncared for while growing up, the full story, which her mother has somehow held back from telling her; is very different.
For Nora therefore, what kept her going was to constantly stir up the fires of hate and anger towards her mother. She only visited her once every few years, yet she had absolutely no problems making the journey just to go ranting about how everything was her mother’s fault. Wondering why the long preface?
There is an interesting remark in the conclusion to today’s Psalm: ‘Where would I be if I did not believe I would experience the LORD’s favor in the land of the living?’ To the Psalmist therefore, that was the one reason he kept pressing on – because he was confident and expectant of God’s goodness.
So I ask you: what fuels your drive? What keeps you going? What expectations drive your forward motion? Are you moved by a zeal for revenge, a fire of rage or buckets of bitterness? If so, you ought to consider changing your fuel.
Remember # the wrong fuel will eventually lead to a breakdown.